You’re Not Okay! And That’s Okay


Have you ever tried to hug yourself?

C’mon, give it a try! Take your right arm and place it across your left shoulder. Now do the same with your left arm – place it across your right shoulder. See? There you go! It’s a hug that you truly deserve, a reminder that you are enough. Yes, you deserve your love.

The term “self-love” is often underestimated until you begin to experience it. It’s a liberating feeling, a sense of safety and contentment with your own self. It could be quite dangerous though. Once you’ve felt what this feels like, no one else can satisfy you the same. Maybe you don’t need another entity getting into your head and camouflaging the thoughts you had for a perfect person. The desire to be wanted, craving attention in that crowded room, or simply being acknowledged will all begin to fade away. The process is tedious and you’d probably never be there completely. But trying is what makes it matter, right?

Suffering from ADHD, PTSD, and Depression is hard. Your days could be perfectly well, the to-do-list wipes the floor off your feet, and you feel perfectly fine. And suddenly something triggers in your head and goes straight to your heart. The tears roll down your cheeks and you find yourself ashamed and confused about what you are feeling. People often tell me, you’re thinking too much, stay positive, it’s all in your head, you’re overreacting. It’s easier said than done. They need to understand, we are not doing this willingly. 

Our mind sometimes takes control of us, and everything seems impossible. Growing up in a dynamic, culturally diverse environment, it’s not been easy to talk about suffering. Your parents, friends and loved ones won’t always understand. You need not expect them to either. Nobody would know how you feel.

Cherophobia is a phobia where a person has an irrational aversion to being happy. The term comes from the Greek word “chero,” which means “to rejoice.” When a person experiences cherophobia, they’re often afraid to participate in activities that many would characterize as fun, or of being happy.

– Urban Dictionary

You are either living in the past, letting it hurt you or thinking of the future worries like they are happening now. It’s not your fault if you lash out on the few people you count on and end up losing them. It’s perfectly okay, to not be okay. The ones who can understand are the ones you keep closest.

On my happier days I’d be out laying in the grass, witnessing the prettiest sunset with my favorite people, and NOT thinking. Just living the moment like I should. I’ve seldom felt like this, and the adrenaline makes it even better. Regardless of how people make you feel, your own state of mind is what’s salient. I hope that whatever is causing you to feel low, upset, or angry, you remember that you are not alone. Just as you’ve changed and grown from who you were years ago, good things are bound to happen🌸

Oishwaria Mukherjee

Oishwaria, who hails from Kolkata, India, is brought up in Oman, Muscat. Hiraeth is an emotion for her. Home was never about the place, but people. Coming to her hometown was a contrast she could barely adjust to. She lived like a khanabadosh, exploring the infinite dimensions within herself. She delves deeper into cultures and history accentuating her flair of diversity. She thrives to continually improve and unlearn to stay relevant. In the world of hashtags, she is a river of words that needs space to flow freely. She is an optimist by nature and passionate about educating, motivating, and enabling herself and others around her to achieve self-actualization. To her, sunsets echo with a thousand words, her thoughts collect like clouds, and her mind creates vivid canvases.


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